The Softer Side of Life by elle finn

(Essay written in January 2000)

 

 

A feminine feminist

Feminine women

Feeling misunderstood

Aggression is as bad as passivity

Doormats and good girls

Fear

Working not fighting

Interdependence

Marilyn versus Madonna

A softer society

 

 

A Feminine Feminist

 

I feel that these days it is not so much women who need to be liberated but rather the more traditional aspects of femininity. The work of housewives, mothers and caregivers, the emotional, gentle, vulnerable side of human beings in general, the love of peace, nature and the arts, the joy of looking and feeling delicate, soft and beautiful. The fact that these ideals are looked upon as being soppy; dated and over-refined show how much prejudice there is towards people with a strong feminine side.

I feel that when a soft, caring and gentle person is criticised for being weak, dependent and passive, it reflects a general lack of understanding, acceptance and appreciation of deeply feminine qualities. I think it is a masculine dominated society that upholds the virtue of being strong, independent and active while pouring scorn on those it sees as weak, dependent and passive. I think that society would benefit from understanding and accepting the existence of the more extreme feminine personality traits of fear, weakness, passivity and dependency as it understands and accepts the more extreme masculine personality traits of anger, strength, aggression and independence. Then people could work towards becoming more balanced, whole and assertive, having understood and accepted both ends of the feminine to masculine spectrum.

 

Feminine Women

 

Sometimes I think it is more acceptable for a transsexual or transvestite to have a strong feminine side than a woman. Sometimes I feel like a transvestite if I go out of the house looking a bit more flowery and frilly than usual. I feel more vulnerable in a skirt than a pair of jeans; I also get more unwanted attention. Women’s clothes shops are full of dull, dark, sharply cut clothes while men’s clothes have grown increasingly more colourful and patterned. Is role reversal the ultimate goal of women’s liberation? If so I think it is narrow minded, unrealistic and unachievable without the fully informed consent of men, not to mention undesirable to some women.

According to recent surveys women still do most of the housework and taking care of the children, as well as going out to work. How do relationships between new men and new women fair in real life? My husband and I are only slightly new and we get less equal with the passing years. My husband earns more money than me, has a more demanding job, is busy advancing his career and spends a lot of his spare time sorting out technical problems on our home computer network. I have a part time job, do most of the housework, have most of the responsibility for looking after our young daughter and I pursue my artistic interests when I have time.

The government would rather women go out to work and pay someone else to look after their children rather than the woman stay home and look after her children herself. This highlights how society devalues traditional female work of looking after the home and children, while placing a higher value on the traditionally male business arena. To me both areas of work are important.

Girls might do better at school where such qualities as good behaviour, self discipline, having a quiet, studious nature, persistence, tenacity and being purely creative for its own sake are desired. But men do much better at work, where taking risks, being bold and aggressive, having a high amount of demonstrable energy and using applied creativity are what is sought. To me the problem is that masculine qualities are not properly appreciated and encouraged at school and feminine qualities are not properly appreciated and encouraged in the workplace.

 

Feeling Misunderstood

 

In the past I have heard men complain about women being complicated creatures who are difficult to understand. I don’t hear this complaint much these days, although in my experience men and women still have trouble understanding each other.

Thanks to feminism women have a lot of freedom these days, we are on an equal footing with men in many areas, but we have our equality on male terms. Women’s liberation has been replaced by sexual equality, the message that women are as good as men has become women are the same as men. I think people are similar and different in subtle, complicated ways as well as the blatantly obvious ways and trying to simplify matters doesn’t help and can cause more frustration and misunderstandings.

I was having problems in my marriage which I managed to sort out with the help of “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus” by John Gray. The problem was not that I did too much housework, I honestly don’t mind doing the ironing, or that I spend too much time doing things for other people, I enjoy doing things for other people, it is much more rewarding than doing things just for me. I didn’t want my husband to change in some fundamental way. What I needed was to be able to share my feelings with him and for him to listen and understand. My husband would rather not talk when he’s feeling bad, but I would and I need people’s support, not someone to say I shouldn’t feel the way I do or I shouldn’t be the way I am.

The above scenario is just another illustration of how feminine, emotional, sensitive people are misunderstood, made to feel bad about themselves and denied the support they need in order to feel truly happy.

 

Aggression is as bad as passivity

 

I have often been told that I’m too sensitive and need to toughen up. I didn’t want to go to assertiveness classes, I needed to. Most of the other women on the course felt like me, that people took advantage of their gentle natures and they needed to toughen up to get on better in society. There was one woman who had been sent on the course by her employer as she was too aggressive. No aggressive people were there out of choice and the passive natured participants didn’t think being aggressive was a social handicap, in the same way that being passive was. If femininity and masculinity had an equal footing in society, being aggressive would be seen as being just as undesirable as being passive.

 

Doormats and Good Girls

 

It is important to accept yourself for what you are. A person easily taken advantage of is seen as a doormat, despised and with little self-respect. It is a case of blaming the victim rather than the perpetrator. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses and sometimes a person’s good qualities can be used against them. A caring, kind, trusting person is more easily taken advantage of than a selfish, mean, suspicious person. Being open to things leaves you vulnerable, but I think it is still preferable to hardening your heart and shutting yourself away. Joy and sorrow, being loved or despised are all part of life. I think you have to accept the positive and the negative, the anger and the fear, to get the most out of life. Assertiveness teaches you to assert your thoughts and feelings without undermining other people’s thoughts and feelings. Standing up for yourself does not have to involve trampling other people under your feet.

There are various aspects of being a caring, well-behaved, sensitive person that are decidedly uncool these days. Who wants to be thought of as a Christian do-gooder, a trendy lefty, an old hippy, an eco-bore or an old-fashioned person with Victorian values. Caring, well-behaved, sensitive people may be all of these or none of these things. So who would want to be a good girl, when they can be a bad girl? I know I would. I think it is more important to be true to who you really are, whatever anyone else thinks.

 

Fear

 

It has been said that people with stronger masculine sides feel more anger, while people with stronger feminine sides feel more fear. I have a lot of fears. I don’t set out to overcome or control them, it takes too much time and doesn’t work, I live with them the best way I can. I don’t like walking down lonely streets on my own, but I do. I feel frightened and vulnerable to insults and attacks. The way I deal with my fears is to acknowledge and accept them and to acknowledge and accept the consequences and worse case scenarios before they happen. I feel pleased with myself for having the courage to do things I’m frightened of, most of the time my fears come to nothing, but I think it’s counter productive to deny their existence.

 

Working: not fighting

 

I’m not happy with the current preoccupation with fighting for things rather than working towards them. There seems to be an unhealthy preoccupation with wars, battles, angry outbursts, shows of strength and becoming more aggressive. This approach does not help me better my situation in life, I am a non-aggressive person, I rarely get angry, I don’t like arguing, let alone fighting.

Who can win the battle of the sexes? No one. Men and women are as good and as bad as each other. I think it would be better for men and women to work together towards better understanding and a better life for everyone, rather than argue over which sex is stronger, more intelligent, more useful, and generally better all round.

Who wins wars anyway? Is it the army with the strongest, most aggressive fighters or is it the army with the best battle plans and strategies. In my experience, when you’re under attack, the more you can stay calm, think clearly and speak and act positively to diffuse the situation, the better off you’ll be.

 

Interdependence

 

A great fuss is made over independent women. I don’t believe any human beings or anything else can be really independent. We all depend on other things and other people for our survival. People like to feel needed. In this case a dependent person is special, they make you feel needed. Human beings need the world, the world doesn’t need human beings. I wish we would show more respect for the things we are dependent on and be more responsible for the things that depend on us. What good is having your own house, your own car and a successful career if you are lonely, in a shallow, material world with nature dying around you. It is an uphill struggle for green politics, animal rights, looking after the most vulnerable in our world and caring for our environment locally and globally. Hopefully remembering how interdependent we are, we will be better able to live more caringly, generously and responsibly and not be fooled by the vacuous, consumerist, culture of selfishness, materialism and greed.

 

Marilyn versus Madonna

 

Who is a weak person and who is a strong person? Princess Diana and Marilyn Monroe are often accused of having weak characters, that is why they didn’t survive, people reason. Madonna is a strong person, she made it past forty. Madonna said that she would never be like Monroe because Monroe was a victim and she isn’t.

I think people think Marilyn and Diana were weak because they were extremely feminine. It’s their strong female personality traits, their dependence on male attention, their soft voices, their emotional behaviour, their vulnerability, gentle manner and affinity with children that people confuse as weakness.

Mrs Thatcher turned to media gurus to improve her image; she lowered her voice and started wearing sharply tailored suits with a moulded hairstyle. She became the iron lady who didn’t make U turns. Why was it such a bad thing for Mrs T to make U turns? In case she came across as a fickle woman? But what’s wrong with changing your mind. Perhaps the country would be better off if politicians admitted their mistakes more often and were prepared to take the consequences and change track accordingly.

If femininity is seen as a sickness by society, it is little wonder MM and Princess Di had problems accepting themselves and turned to drug addiction, madness and eating disorders as they were continually misunderstood and denied the support they needed.

I feel the truth is that Marilyn, Madonna, Mrs T and Princess Di are/were human beings with both good and bad sides, strengths and weaknesses. It is not often that women with great feminine qualities, of such beauty, compassion and vulnerability, rise so high in the public arena, but when they do they attract much love and attention. I hope the next Marilyn or Diana will have a longer, happier life than her predecessors.

 

A Softer Society

 

I feel a lot of problems in society today like obsessive compulsive disorder, eating disorders, shopaholics, agoraphobia, mind and behaviour altering drugs and a culture of violence and aggression are caused by people not being in tune with themselves, with both their masculine and feminine sides. I don’t think the world would necessarily be better if we all had well balanced masculine and feminine sides. I know myself well enough to know that I am a feminine woman with a weak masculine side. It has taken a lot of work and attendance at assertiveness classes to make the most of the little masculinity I have. I am aware that there are many people with strong masculine or aggressive sides who would benefit from an acceptance and an appreciation of femininity. I think that some men still have a problem with having a strong, masculine, dominating personality and yet there still is a part of them that is vulnerable and needs support. We should all learn that vulnerability and needing support is not a weakness to be taken advantage of, but a part of being human that needs to be understood, appreciated and respected.

 

 

Elle Finn’s Quiet Corner